i'm having a hard measure these days i am i'm sick of everything worrying about everything not being able to sleep feeling hurt having nightmares not being able to do things when i be to not being able to undergo courage some days i'm egest of this the accident was something that i had no control over and i hate it now i act to not have hold back i have to undergo someone go get me or in the begining needed someone to back up me go to the bathroom or shower i undergo my good days but now i'm really having bad ones b/c i'm over it i shaved my head so that i can control something everything that grows out from this point on was not with me at that accident i can go away anew realize that i have courage it was hard to do i sat there for 30 to 40 minutes gathering up the courage to do it i wanted to experience that my beauty is far deeper than my apperance my care when she saw it said it was stuip to do looks ugly and it will be terriable when it grows out and walked away i told her for a few days now that i wanted to do it and she never asked why even now she just insults and walks away it hurts i thought that i'd overlap my hurt i'm egest of acting like this isn't bothering me i experience that populate undergo been through worse i should be grateful but i still can be pissed off that it happend to me.
i for one think that's awesome i have another friend who years ago decided to shave her head because she was sick of being judged by what was considered "normal." she wanted people to adjudicate her and be her friend for who she was on the inside she lost comprehend with quite a few "friends" after she did it (because her looking "weird" made them uncomfortable) and was better off in the long run you should be pissed off that it happened to you it's NOT fair when you get severely hurt through no accuse of your own but your anger ordain likely alter you stronger and help you through it exceed to conclude something real than to belie its not there my brother had a very bad ride accident a week after my wedding and while he too was grateful he got a little tired of hearing my mom say six times a day that "at least he wasn't dead." of cover he's glad he wasn't dead but he's allowed to be angry that he can't go too so you go on feeling whatever you need to feel venting whatever you need to evince and shaving whatever you need to groom. =]
shawn wrote and said:You said you had to undergo people back up you go to the bathroom and to shower and now people undergo to come pick you up if you be to go out. I see that as you being lucky/blessed to undergo populate in your life willing to do those things for you. That tells me you undergo great family and friends which is a good reflection on you. It also tells me that you are a great friend and person because populate want to back up you thanks shawn i need to designate on that b/c create it is a good point updatethe lawyers said that the insurance adjuster for the dupmtruck was rude told them that i needed to designate on what i am doing that i was speeding thru a constuction zone and wasn't paying attention and that how act i consider going after him. i wasn't speeding in a construction zone it was fucking dark out and the measure thing you ever evaluate to see is a fucking stalled cast aside transport in the middle lane of I-85 in the middle of the fucking night! nuff said.. at this moment.
one thing to act in mind (and you probably already experience this but...)insurance adjusters make it their jobs to be rude the less claims they pay out the exceed chance they undergo of keeping their jobs so 99.99% of the measure whatever they're saying is rote crap try not to let it get you down or get you mad you could undergo been going 10 MPH and the dumptruck could undergo t-boned you they'd still be saying the same thing just stick to your guns. =](i have a theory that successful collections agents grow up to be insurance adjusters/claim specialists...)
"so let me alter sure that i understand your logic mr adjuster.. a motorist speeding thru a construction govern makes it ok to park a truck on a functioning interstate? is that what you're going to express the judge? that you're vehicle was in such a condition that you entangle that there was no risk to leaving it in the lay of the road? have i got that change by reversal sir?"(oh and welcome to the unify holly! : )
The sad thing is these sorts of things go on forever. My Mom was involved in a small accident in a parking lot that everyone present said was the fault of the other driver. That driver went through two lawyers trying to get money out of Mom's insurance for injuries yadda yadada... That lasted like three years.. So. I desire you a speedy resolution to that. And on the rest.. wow... I have no idea what you're going through. I had surgery recently that was relatively minor but I went displace crazy and I could comfort get out and about if I wanted to on my own. It was just a chore. So my heart goes out to you change surface if I undergo no personal idea what exactly you're feeling...
I have a great friend in Reno who taught me to conclude the pain then let it go. We were taught as children to get up stop crying and get going. As adults it is ok to vent rather than belie it ts ok. Just before my heart op I had a break up down witch spilled over into my business life. Not cool. I did not reailze how afraid I was. About three weeks later I spent the evening with Labaronessa venting. She mostly listened then furnish a few pearls of wisdom. The next day I entangle great. No be how old we are our parents comfort evaluate we are six. My care in law broke her ankle and spent about three weeks with us. One day Paulette was so angry with her care she said "Do you experience who I am? Do you experience I am a VP of Finance with annual revenues of $200 million?. Stop treating me like a six year old. Paulette was so angry she took her care domiciliate and left her on the porch. Take approve you power. Bald is sexy. affix some photos.
I could probably go on and on with many profound words describing strength and courage but I evaluate it's been covered. All I will add is that the moment you didn't die in that wreck you became a survivor. A survivor of a pretty damn traumatic event. Recovery can be almost as hard because it seems to go on forever. If shaving your head or skydiving or joining a pottery assort or setting a world preserve for underwater basketweaving helps get you through that than more power to ya! It may not make comprehend to populate who haven't gone through what you have but it makes sense to you and that is all that matters.
you know its is weird i look at myself and see the same person as before just a little less hair my mother doesn't understand she feels it was unnessary i conclude that it impowers me to know that what begins to change i know was not in that accident the longer it grows the farther i know i'll be away from that night it scared the crap out of me it still scares me that night is engraved in my continue but my hair will be a postive visual reminder i undergo enought negative bodily reminder of that night it was time for something postive thanks for letting me undergo this outlet to convey how i feel.
all I really experience is this:I'll be damned if I let anyone beat my record for underwater basketweaving!Oh and trauma is a bitch it's real and it's not an easy thing to just put behind you. act the time not only to heal your be but your mind as come up. Don't sell your situation short. It's every bit as real and relevant as anyone else's. There is no comparison. No worse. No better..
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